Thank you for loving me....
I have truely been overwhelmed by everything that you've given, time...love...effort...encouragement...gifts....companionship... You always remember what I've said before and keeps my words locked in your heart...
I know that it must have been really difficult to love me...
because I demanded so much love from you.... that has been missing from the one who gave birth to me but left her two kids to build another family... and dad who visually shows like he has only one child, his son although once in a while tries.... my mum now, who makes a point in putting alot of effort to love us but is overcovered with work and committments... some use-to-be-church friends that said they will be behind me if I needed them, but when I turned behind, they are so so so far back that I couldnt see them...some friends who I thought were close, but turn out to be pple who will probably find out only in the newspaper days after if I've died...
I turned to you, expecting you to fill in the empty heart of mine, without realizing that it is really near impossible... while you try and try so to hard to pour all you have into my empty container....
You attempt to make me smile by doing everything you can...telling funny jokes, doing funny things... doing whatever I feel like doing... you try to be here for me whenever you can, to keep me company... you know i dont like to go home, so you do everything you can to accompany me...you know no one cooks at home, so you try to bring me to your house to eat your Papa's cooking.... you know that I lack the love from my only brother, so you try to pull me close to your brother and sisters.... you know when I am feeling stressed, so you try to reschedule your plans to keep me company, even to the point where you had to stay late at night to study after I slept...
I know you must be tired doing so... i am sorry baby...
I have truely been overwhelmed by everything that you've given, time...love...effort...encouragement...gifts....companionship... You always remember what I've said before and keeps my words locked in your heart...
I know that it must have been really difficult to love me...
because I demanded so much love from you.... that has been missing from the one who gave birth to me but left her two kids to build another family... and dad who visually shows like he has only one child, his son although once in a while tries.... my mum now, who makes a point in putting alot of effort to love us but is overcovered with work and committments... some use-to-be-church friends that said they will be behind me if I needed them, but when I turned behind, they are so so so far back that I couldnt see them...some friends who I thought were close, but turn out to be pple who will probably find out only in the newspaper days after if I've died...
I turned to you, expecting you to fill in the empty heart of mine, without realizing that it is really near impossible... while you try and try so to hard to pour all you have into my empty container....
You attempt to make me smile by doing everything you can...telling funny jokes, doing funny things... doing whatever I feel like doing... you try to be here for me whenever you can, to keep me company... you know i dont like to go home, so you do everything you can to accompany me...you know no one cooks at home, so you try to bring me to your house to eat your Papa's cooking.... you know that I lack the love from my only brother, so you try to pull me close to your brother and sisters.... you know when I am feeling stressed, so you try to reschedule your plans to keep me company, even to the point where you had to stay late at night to study after I slept...
I know you must be tired doing so... i am sorry baby...
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Baby.... words cannot explain how much I appreciate you.... Everyday I Thank God that I've met such a wonderful guy... YOU....
Michelle's meaning (which I think you know le):
1. When I say, "dont need le... I dont want you to pei wo." Actually... I WANT YOU to accompany me!!
2. When I say, "nothing happened." Actually... I felt upset with myself for being angry with you....
3. When I say, "Baby, what are you doing later?" Actually, I am waiting for you to ask me to accompany you...
4. When I say, "anything lo." Actually, I am feeling sad with the reply.
5. When I say, "I love you." I FREAKING MEAN IT !!
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