The "what if......"

I think I am under tremendous stress....

Basically, the symptoms of stress has officially become part of my daily life....
And perhaps worst... I dont feel anything strange if I suddenly have stress-related rashes growing on my palm again, or migraine or waking up in the middle of the night several times and so on... It has just...simply become part of my day to day life....

Honestly, sometimes I just feel like giving up.... quit and lock myself in the room.... the joy of not doing anything... not working.... or.... is it really?

Perhaps as the more I see how my life and others function.... I began to get overly worried about the future... really scared of the unknown... Both near future and far future....

Maybe it is the "what if..."

Money? Maybe sickness....? The old gets forgotten.... the poor gets poorer... And who knows....maybe the next moment you are not needed in your company?

Some random thoughts.....